2009: MY year is HERE.

The year is finally here! ;] I know, i know i'm 4days late... but that doesn't matter! By the way, happy birthday to one of my best friends Jordan [Jan 02] who just turned 16! YAY! :D Anyway... 2008, had its ups and downs... mostly downs but towards the end i realized that i'm strong as ever & that i won't let anyone or anything bring me down as much as it has last year. This year like Jerson says, "Lets shine in '09!" I totally agree... This year is a Biggie for those class of '09 at church! Me, Justin, Jenny, Charlene, and Crystal... oh i didn't forget my good friend in dallas: Rafael! Its the year we finally graduate from highschool! I cant believe it! We grow up hella fast! ITs super exciting! And this is the year i plan out my debutante! ;]]]]]] BIG SUPERRR HAPPY FACE! I'm hella excited for that! ITs in a few months, and i'm already preparing for the big theme! hahahahaha, thanks to Ej and Rafael! Well 2009, i'm ready for anything up to this point, i'm happy, my friends are happy, i didnt start or leave with drama for this year, i'm growing up, time to go on that grown status and finally take charge! Thankyou God, thankyou Mom and dad and thankyou best friends! ;] 09 BRING IT ON!

Pasalamat Dec2008// Ice Skating.

Haha, its about time i've updated on this!... its been quite a while. Friends left, and i still feel pretty good. Well anyway, a weight was lifted off my shoulders. And friends are friends again, and everyone can hang out with everyone again :] Which is a BIGG HAPPY FACE! This passed sunday was Pasalamat, and everyone was thankful! VERRRRRY spiritual too! Even for the kids Pasalamat! :] Well after that we chilled at our best friends house, yep!... the Moores! haha. And waited forever for Jerson and Jun to arrive. Then went to the Northwoods skating center & ice skated. It only lasted an hour becus the placed closed at 3:30pm... But that single HOUR lasted like a LONGGG time! :] And everyone was just holding hands laughing with everyone, doing twists and turns and tried jumping! It was really fun! Then ate at Chuy's Mexican Resturant which was okay... HAHA! I like chachos and taco cabana better, but for everyone it was cheap so it was good for 25 people! Then we walked around the shopping centers up north in the freezing cold and went to Starbucks, grabbed a couple of drinks, then went to American Eagle, where I THINK i should get some clothes at! hahhahah... and then went to this toy place, and all of us was walking around, looking around and playing with toys! hahah how cute... in between time we was taking pictuires, which are already posted on Jersons, Czara, Kiana, Cean's myspaces. ;] Anyway, it was good. Then after that we went to the Venegas' house and played like 6 games of Mafia!... becus it was SO MUCH FUN! I kept telling people how dumb they are that they kept choosing me... becus i looked so guilty... and all those times i wanted to be mafia, i couldnt becus i'd always get choosen right off the bat.. geez. IT WAS A GREAAT, LONG SUNDAY & I loved every minute of it... except THAT FEEEEET STINKS... those skates STUNK like crazy! SICK!

Just can't get enough...

... I guess now that everything is going pretty stable except still accepting the fact that two of my best friends aren't here as much as i would like them to be, i'm just a little infuriated still... I don't think that i'll get over the fact of why they moved. Or of course once again, the fact that they don't live in San Antonio anymore, in that same house off of pipers creek. I think that the more we'll see them, the more attached we'll be... Since they've been here, we all gotten really close, close enough to make it on peoples top on myspace! hahaha even closer. Close enough to make video blogs every chance they can [krish & ej], or hang out at Barnes and Nobles or even call to get help with math homework [ haha remember raf?]... I'll never forget those times that i've cherished with them... ;] Just thinking about all the insiders, cracking jokes, and funny memories we've shared it doesn't make me as sad as i was when i was watching them leave, it makes me laugh! [Ay yah ay ay yah ay ay yah ah ah.ah.ah.] That night was so unforgetable! i'll always remember it... it makes me giggle, even right now just trying to type it out.

I think that i JUST cant get enough.

TO all my Best Friends: "I loves you."

The final goodbye.

Were the greatest with the Nemis.
I spent 4 days with them! :] ok... three & a half...
Sunday we hung out with them at their house, and then went to ka jovy's house
where they had this game about ej & raf's favorites... now, dont think i was trying hard just to guess what rafael's favorites were, just to take a picture with him! haha! He told me, "You should know..." and then i only got one picture with him! hhahaah... funny funny. Everyone was just guessing!... and "METRO STATION?" OMG, i could of guessed that a long time ago! hahhaha.... How sad! Well that night after ka jovy's i went to their house... met them & the aquinos there and OMG that was the funnest craziest night in my whole life... I said it, MY WHOLE LIFE! I've never seen rafael so crazy! I haven't seen the aqunios like that in a long time... and EJ?... hahahahah she laughed so hard!... matter of fact WE LAUGHED so hard. Gosh i love them so much!... the kuuhlann. Haha. Right khrisna? hehe. Well we left their house to the hotel around 2am... then headed to the hotel where they have the more comfortablest pillows EVER!... tthey felt sooo fluffy! ;] Duhhh comfort inn by La Cantera! Well i think me & rafael and ka melin slept around 3? or 4?... and then ej & ate chloe slept at 5:30am...
Soooooooooo fun just relaxing with them...
Then the next morning my mom took us back to their house and then, packed up everything else that was left over into the cars... everything for the U-HAUL was already packed up...
then i kept crying here and there.... then after that, the new minister came and was greeting everyone. After that the nemis family prayed. While they were praying i was outside with max and nalah while they were in their cages and just started crying... then ej came towards me and then we hugged forever in each otheres arms... she said to me, "you take care of yourself okay? i love you guys, and ill miss you." and then i hugged rafael saying, "take care!..." hahahhaha two words?! JUST TWO WORDS?!... but it meant a lot. I didnt wanna let go of either of them. I wanted them planted in my arms! hahaha ! No really. Then after that i saw them drive away. The hardest part of someone leaving is seeing them drive away... I saw one of my best friends cry, and saw one starting to tear up so badly. I was so thankful that i was able to spend more time with them, i wish some others could of too... while we was crying, we kinda laughed hahaha... but thats just becus we're natural at laughing. I stopped crying and feeling sad. I kept thinking about how im going to vegas thursday! And then going to dallas again for region choir practice, and then for the formal, and then.... AFTER I GET MY CAR :]...
I asked rafael what he thought about my 6 page letter, he said that he was touched. And that gave me that feeling that he actually went through it, and understood everything... I havent talked to ej about it yet...
But that made me feel good :] I dont want them to EVER leave texas, but people will grow up... and would want to go outta state becus its better for themselves. We just grow up so fast! While they're gone, i gotta stay strong, we gotta stay strong. Dont fall for evil minded people or liars...

I love you, i miss you EJ and Rafael :] I Just cant believe you guys are already there, and it feels as if you guys just left and then you're coming back... that means your presences are still in san antonio... creeepy. hahaha jk.. maybe they're sitting on my shoulders... thats why my back hurts. hahahaha jk... shutter! HAHAHA... shutter shades [rafa wants] ha!... Ej our mouth video!... gosh, i think they really need blogspot! hahah

The Best Time Together.

I must admit friday & Saturday [Sept 26-27]
Was the best time together.
There was a sleepover at Raf & Ej's house and maaaan
I had the best time with the best of friends...
literally the BEST of FRIENDS! :]
[Khrisna, EJ, Rafael, Kiana, Kim, Arianne, Jerson and jordan]
Hahah! My lil funny crew. Well first of all as i got there, we were all laughing and eating food!
Then after that we watched "shutter" which was scary yet soooo hilarous when we ended up finding out thats the reason why that guys neck been hurting!
Then re recreated that scene with Khrisna on Ej's back!
Everyone was laughing histarically! <--- Never used that before.
We stayed up til 6:30am still laughing! Then the rest of the day we woke up around 9 becus of Odessa! HAHAHA... i woke up on my own, but she kept putting max on top of us.
And well, we helped ej and rafael pack up their belongings.. hahahaha... :(
Later that day, Kim & ej asked to read my letter for rafael, and they read it.... They cried, and then laughed... It was sad at the beginning but in the end i tried to make it better :]
I wrote him 6 pages and wrote ej 5 pages and told them they cant read it until they're on the road to dallas... :( Dallas?!... cannot compare to SA. There idk about it being fun..... HAHA.. no really. You gotta be cool to have fun in SA, but in dallas? Gosh... Once i get my car, i'm going to fill up the gas, fill up the seats and we head over to dallas to see our Loved ones! Forrreaaal.

The Truth; Real talk.

Why do people act like it's so hard to tell the truth?
Are they scared of all the results and outcomes if they do?
Some lie to get themselves off the hook,
many lie to try to convince people to feel sorry for them.
Few lie because they think "highly" of themselves.
Or they lie with all of these reasons...

... thats dumb.

They just don't know that there will be some who will find out.
There will be people who don't take any bull* from you.
There will be people who thinks you obviously lie from your mouth.
There will be some who will feel sorry for you,
but later they'll realize they have made a big mistake and will
turn their backs from you. Next time, do the right thing and just
admit. Dont make the wrong decision and lie. Don't make people feel sorry for you!
[Hearing one side of the story instead of both sides.]

That's why others look like they are at fault,
someone will just assume its them because they're crying.

They try to make your alliances, cliques, groups, homies, to go against
someone who they feeel is doing the wrong thing,
they gossip, spread rumors and lies ruining ones reputation.
You're not supposed to do that. But that's them.
Nobody is stopping them. They choose to do it.
Them offended? Ha, by what?...
Anyway,
And the outcome of this?
We all know :(

Ohh, Lets just face it.
They lied
[period]

Again.

A song made by: Me.

Here i am i've fallen once again,
Feeling like its never gonna end,
You and me watching shooting stars,
Realized i've fallen really hard.

It wasn't easy to explain,
How i feel for you again,
Letting go is the best for you,
Trying to isn't easy to do.

Now i realize this isn't right,
You put me down, cant sleep at night,
I want this to end tonite,
Dont pretend this is alright.

[to be continued]